Self-hate

2020.01.09, by Anatolij
Filed under Journal, Personal, PTSD, Relations

The CPTSD has been very… demanding lately. Not just C., but the experiences in █████, the brain injury, disappointments in not being able to realise our █████ aspirations, self-loathing. All of it came to a head the other day. You could say it was the rage of the betrayed, both living and dead…

When we came back (ah, Leotrim is hugging me…), Leotrim said something to me.

“All those things you said. ‘Words are just words, if you can’t realise them, then you might as well shut up!’ That was you, wasn’t it. You’ve applied that to yourself… and everyone around you.”

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